Before I make this admission, which a few of my friends and readers already know, please check your pre-conceived notions and condescension at the door. I don’t need to hear from your high horse how bad I am/was and what was happening to my health, because, you see, I already knew it…. And you are perfect, you have never struggled with anything right?
For years now I have struggled with cigarettes. I’ve been smoking them since I was 14-15 years old. I’m now 41 so that’s quite a few years of habit time invested in this crap. Here and there I’ve had a gap where I haven’t smoked, and I have been aided by the patch or the gum. One thing that always happened was that I ended up going back to smoking. It was the simplest thing to do.
There were so many triggers throughout my day that it was difficult to stop. Whether it was an after meal smokes, a smoke when I got into my work van or the “date” smoke when my wife and I got outside for five minutes of peace. It was safe and convenient to go back to what I knew, and that was smoke.